FLASHBACK
Episode
44
Part 1
"Help me, Tuvok... don't let me fall!"
Captain Kathryn Janeway summons Lieutenant Tuvok to the Bridge to investigate a gaseous anomaly containing sirillium, a versatile energy source. When Tuvok sees the bright blue nebula on the ship's viewscreen, he begins to shake uncontrollable, becoming disoriented and dizzy. On his way to sickbay, Tuvok suddenly experiences a vision of a young girl calling to him for help. He sees himself as a boy, desperately trying to pull the girl up from the edge of a cliff. The young Tuvok could not hold on and the girl falls screaming to her death. Covered in sweat, Tuvok collapses on the floor of sickbay with his eyes wide open with shock and fear.
In the Mess hall,
Neelix pours a drink for Tuvok. "Anthraxic citrus
peel, orange juice, with just a hint of papalla seed extract. It's an
experimental blend."
Tuvok looks up toward Neelix then looks at the
drink. "The success rate of your culinary
experiments has not been high."
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Neelix looked back at Tuvok and leans over a little. "Ensign Golwat tried some yesterday and she thought it was delicious. In fact, she had a second glass, and she never has seconds."
"All I ask is that you try it, Mr. Vulcan." Tuvok took a deep breath then picked up the glass. Tuvok doubtfully takes a sip. "Impressive."
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"Breakfast is coming right up," he calls. "Porakan eggs." He beats the
eggs in a bowl before adding them to the stove pan. |
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Neelix: "On Talax, it a tradition to share the history of a meal before you begin eating. It's a way of enhancing the culinary experience. My mother was brilliant. She could make every course, every garnish come alive, by making it a character in a story. My favorite was the one about the crustacean-" |
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Suddenly flames leap from the stove. He grabs the pan lid and slams it over the pan, but it takes a moment before the flames reduce. |
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Tuvok: "What happened?"
A alert sounds. "Janeway to Tuvok. Please
report to the Bridge. Mr. Neelix, I'd like you to join us as well." |
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Janeway: "Captain's log, stardate 50126.4. We have detected a gaseous anomaly that contains sirillium, a highly combustible and versatile energy source. We've altered course to investigate."
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Neelix is informed. "Sirillium." |
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Torres, who is at the engineering station on the Bridge: "Yes, and blow up half your kitchen in the process. Sirillium is far more useful as a warp plasma catalyst." |
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Tuvok: "The gas can also be used to boost deflector shield efficiency." |
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Chakotay smiles. He comments to Janeway: "The vultures are circling." Janeway: "Well, there's certainly no shortage of good ideas. Have all department heads submit proposals for sirillium usage." Chakotay: "Aye, Captain." |
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Tuvok: "The anomaly is within visual range." |
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Janeway: "Analysis, Mr. Kim?" |
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But Tuvok is no longer paying attention. He looks down at his hand,
which is trembling. He looks confused, and is afraid of that confusion, as
confusion prevents him from being in complete control. |
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When there is no reply, they all turn to him, and see that he is
confused, under strain, certainly not himself - he is ill. |
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Tuvok enters the turbo lift and orders the computer: "Deck 5."
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Suddenly he remembers something most vividly - he is a boy holding desperately onto the hand of a girl who has fallen over a precipice. Only young Tuvok's effort is preventing her from falling. Far below her is a gigantic chasm! |
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The girl screams: "Please don't let go! Tuvok, don't let me fall!" |
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The boy Tuvok desperately holds on. He remembers no Vulcan reserve. Instead he cannot help but react to her terror as his own fear rises. |
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But the girl falls! "No!!!" she screams as she plummets to her death. |
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Tuvok staggers along the corridor, holding onto the
wall.
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In Sickbay, Kes tries to catch him as he stumbles through the door. |

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But he falls and lies there wide-eyed and shuddering from his experience. |
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